Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Ms. Sarah Pike!

My very cute roommate Ms. Sarah Pike is leaving soon for graduate school in Iowa, and I'm beyond devastated to see her go.

I've never lived with a roommate (besides my momma, if that counts?), and so I worried in the beginning of how things would work. But, having Sarah in my home over the last few months has been a blessing for me. She's such a positive force, a bright light. I'm so grateful she came to stay with me. We've had some fabulous times together--special moments I'll hold onto forever.

I'm sad to see her go, but I know Sarah is headed where she needs to be. I only hope that amid the coursework and fun at Iowa State, she has time to come back for a visit or two.

Good luck Sarah in your future endeavors. I know that you're going to rock everything you do.







Love you!

-A

Scott (& A Bit About Me)

This is an all about Scott post. Here goes!

1. What is his name? Brian Scott Barton
2. Who eats more? Scott
3. Who said I love you first? Scott. He loved me before I realized what a truly amazing man he is. I'm so glad for whatever it is I did that made him stick around--even when I was a crappy friend!
4. Who is taller? Scott by a foot!
5. Who is smarter? Scott for sure. His wisdom amazes me!
6. Who is more sensitive? I think it's a tie. We're both pretty sensitive.
7.Who does the laundry? We both do our laundry. Scott helps me with mine though because I never have time to do it!
8. Who pays the bills? Me
9. Who cooks more? Scott cooks dinner for me every night. He's such a sweetie.
10. What meals do you cook together? Dinner some nights, but mostly it's Scott.
11. Who is more stubborn? Me for sure.
12. Who is the first to admit they're wrong? Scott. I am never wrong (haha!).
13. Who has more siblings? We are tied. I have one brother and Scott has one brother.
14. Who wears the pants in the relationship? We both do. We're pretty equal in our relationship.
15. What do you like to do together? It doesn't matter what we do, just as long as we're together.
16. Who eats more sweets? Me
17. Guilty pleasures? Scott: Mountain Dew and Doritos. Me: Anything chocolate.
18. How did you meet? We met through family.
19. Who asked who out first? Well, Rick (Scott's brother) asked me out for Scott because Scott was too shy.
20. Who kissed who first? I kissed Scott. I was sick of waiting for him to make a move.
21. Who proposed? Scott!
22. What are his best features? I love everything about my man!
23. What is his greatest quality? Scott is extremely kind and sensitive. He gets me completely, unlike anyone else. I love him so very much!

-A

101 days!

In 101 days, Scott and I will be married! We.really.can't.wait!

-A

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Maybe One Day

Life sometimes sucks.

Tonight I had a phone conversation with a girl I call my best friend. For me, a call from my best friend is the highlight of my day. See, I don't often receive phone calls or texts from my bff anymore. So, I savor the time I get with her....a call, a text, an occasional visit when she can fit me in. It's not ideal, but it's all I have and what I hold on to.

At first, the conversation tonight was going well. We made small talk about some life stuff. However, half way into the conversation, things changed. I heard someone in the background ask my friend who she was talking to. She replied, "Ann, a friend from school."

Clearly things haven't been so great for awhile now, but I've tried and tried and tried. I really have no idea where things went bad, but somewhere between last summer and tonight, I went from being a best friend, part of the trio to just being a friend from school. WOW.

It wasn't so long ago, that this friend, another friend and I were best buds. We spent every minute we could together. We were inseparable. I grew up with these girls, shared every life experience with them and knew with certainty they would be there for me always.

But, somewhere, somehow this changed. Not on my end, but on theirs. They changed. They grew up, they got busy, they forgot. They forgot the promises, the fun, the sisterhood we once shared. They forgot me.

In one of the happiest times of my life, I hoped these friends would stand by my side and be with me on the most important day of my life. But, I really doubt that will happen. I've tried, but to no avail.

I feel so empty without them, scared to throw in the towel and be done. I'm afraid because I still have hope. Maybe one day, they'll include me. Maybe one day, they'll want to be part of my life. Maybe one day, they'll remember they loved me. For this, I pray.

-A

Friday, July 16, 2010

The Sharing Place

I just got the word this morning. My application to be a support group volunteer at The Sharing Place has been accepted. YAY!

What does this mean? As a support group volunteer, I will assist in group bereavement therapy sessions. I'm so excited to be able to use my senior thesis research and knowledge to help others during the grieving process. I really can't wait. This is going to be one of the best and hardest experiences of my life.

Wish me luck--I'm going to need. 18 hours of training, here I come!

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Another Quote

"We know what we are,
but know not what we may be."
-William Shakespeare

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Limbo Land

I'm stuck in limbo land, and I'm not enjoying it at all!

I'm about to finish up my last college course, and I have no idea what direction I'm going in terms of school or a career. As I've thought about this day (finishing college) for years now, I've always thought I would have a clear idea of what to do. Nope, nada! For the first time in my life, I have no plan for what's next.

As I see my friends preparing for graduate school and starting careers, I wonder where I've gone wrong. Why am I so lost? What am I going to do? What am I supposed to do?

Law school. Well, there's a thought--a thought I'm very uneasy about. My plan was law school. But, I'm not so sure anymore. I now have other dreams in life, like children. If Scott and I decide on having little ones, I want to be an active part of their lives (the whole soccer mom, PTA president gal), and being a lawyer doesn't really work with that.

So, my plan is gone. I am officially lost. All I know is I am almost finished with college, stuck in a job I don't like and completely confused!

Quote

"The only real mistake is the one
from which we learn nothing."
-John Powell

I was walking on campus yesterday, and I noticed the fountains have been installed in the new Commons area. This is the quote engraved on the south fountain. I was really touched by this quote. As I think back on the things I've learned and accomplished, I realize the truth to these words.

Thanks Westminster for this subtle reminder.

-A

Friday, July 9, 2010

Just A Thought


I love this photo and the saying, but I can't overlook the huge grammatical error it displays. So, here's what it should read: If you don't know where you're going, any road will get you there. Yes, I am an editor and proud of it.
-A

Monday, July 5, 2010

Scott


I.Love.Him.

-A

P.S. 123 days!

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Independence Day!

Happy 4th of July! We hope everyone has a safe and fun holiday!
-A